so at the end of this summer, I was fresh off of having a sort of non-exclusive relationship with a boy I’ve known/liked for years (one of the only boys I’ve ever really liked). I’ll think of a name for him later, I won’t be seeing him until this christmas again when he comes back from the other side of the country.
he had just left to do his masters degree, and I was feeling confident and detached. I’m good at willing away my feelings. it’s actually kind of sad. I had done summer courses here with Amber, but many of our friends had left for the four-month summer break and were now finally returning for school.
there was a big concert us and all of our friends were going to in the first week of september, and I saw our friend chimp there for the first time since before summer. he was on MDMA and I was drinking, rather heavily. we gave each other a hugeee hug and I complimented him on how good he looked.
somehow this turned into me being even bolder than usual and telling him that we would have “explosive” sex if we ever slept together. I didn’t really remember saying it, but he made sure to retell that part a few times in the next few weeks.
we spent a lot of the concert teasing each other. he’s better at it. he lives for building sexual tension. I was gonna lose it. there was an issue that we both had in mind: I’m best friends with his roommate. and his roommate will always have feelings for me in at least a small way. let’s call him teddy bear. not a real animal like the rest, but he deserves a name like that because he’s my best friend and whatever he’s great hahha.
chimp started saying how we shouldn’t do it to teddy. I pushed him down onto a booth in a seating area of the venue and climbed on top of him. “you need to stop,” he said, “you don’t even know the things I want to do to you right now. but we can’t.”
UGHHJAH please as if that’s gonna make me walk away.
he ended up going up to teddy, explaining the situation, and asking his permission to sleep with me. teddy gave him some small speech, but said yes.
chimp and me cabbed with Amber to our house, and me and him made our way downstairs to my room.
it was. amazing. we were already so turned on that we needed very minimal foreplay the first time. it’s like he was designed for me, sexually. the sex was actually just perfect. we had so much fun. he’s so powerful (HIS BICEPS ARE OUT OF THIS WORLD realz), and yet I loved being on top and taking control, too. I think he was the first person I’ve actually just 100 percent enjoyed being on top with.
we had sex three times that night and showered together. we went for a random walk at 4am together as he felt like he was coming down off of M.
we agreed that the sex was too good not to do it again, and that we are both not relationship people.
perfect, I thought, this should be easy.
of course I was wrong. but we’ll get to that.
the next time we saw each other was a few nights later for another friend-group outing. I saw him and gave him a hug, even though things felt sliiightly awkward. at the show, we barely hung out, but when we did, there was the presence of a wordless agreement that tonight we’d definitely do it again. at one point a guy I’d slept with months before (we’ll call him hyena..that’s a good story) was following me around, but I was over it, so I went over to chimp, and said “can you do something about this?”
so he pinned me to the wall and kissed me. hyena left. I said thank you, and kept dancing with all of our friends.
at the end of the night we stood outside, and teddy went “chimp, come on man, let’s cab home?”
chimp made up an excuse that he was waiting for their other roommate. I was standing next to him… so it looked a little obvious. but we knew we should be stealth. we decided we would actually wait for his roomie.
but then, as we were waiting for him, he looked at my face, and I smirked, I was so excited we were going to sleep together again….”okay, we’re leaving. right now.”
we cabbed home and flirted intensely to the point that I knew the cab driver absolutely hated us. “so, race when we get back for who can undress the fastest?” he was saying to me, and I told him I’d probably win.
when we got outside his house, he’s like “okay, so now we’re climbing through my window and sneaking in, think you can fit through there?” he pointed as his window.
“UM, yes! I live to climb shit.” I exclaimed. (What? I love climbing stuff. I’m a kid at heart.)
“ruby, I was kidding.” he said, “I’m going to go through the back door, check if the coast is clear, then come back and get you.”
as soon as he went around the corner, I legit climbed on the wall, squeezed through the window onto his bed (practically cave myself a concussion by hitting my head during), and started undressing as fast as I could. I took off my high waisted skirt, ripped off my crop top that had been tucked into it, stripped off my underwear and unbuttoned my corsette bra. then I extended my body out on the bed and waited.
he came in, turned on the light, saw me, and almost jumped back. “holy shit, you’re…”
“I win.” I shrugged.
“wow. okay. you’re naked. that’s…awesome.”
and he came and wrapped me up in those amazing arms and we started making out. we had sex four times that night. we’d lay there, exhausted once we were done. and then we’d talk for a bit…and sure enough, we were ready to go again. the second time he actually lifted me up, so we were fucking with him standing up and my legs wrapped around him. I couldn’t believe how strong and sexy he was in that moment. the fourth time, we heard someone walking around downstairs.
“is someone there?” I asked,
“naw, naw it’s fine.” he said, “but maybe..maybe you could be a bit quieter.”
“I’ll tryy.” I couldn’t contain myself. it was just so good. he knew it, too. as much as he didn’t want to disturb his roommates, he would go from behind and thrust in, noticing the gasps I couldn’t help but let out and he’d go harder… I could tell he was loving it. I got louder and louder, but it was still quieter than I could have been, that’s for sure.
in the morning, after a couple hours of sleep, his door opened and I slid under the blanket to hide.
I heard the voice of one of his five roommates.
“hey man I, ohh—-” insert pause here for the person to notice that I was there, a lump in the blanket; I couldn’t recognize the voice yet.
“hey,” chimp replied, and I could hear his sheepish smile in his voice.
“you uhhh.. you goin to school?”
“doesn’t look like it man,” chimp laughed.
“alright well uh. keep on truckin’ bro,” and his roomie left. turns out it was one of his roommates that I am also quite close with. two minutes later, the door swung open again. I hid, but my toe was sticking out this time.
I heard teddy’s voice,
“hey…oh shit, do you.. have a girl in here?”
“no man,” chimp answered, “it’s uh, just me.”
MY. TOE. WAS. STICKING. OUT.
I can hear teddy SIT THE FUCK DOWN and proceed to make conversation with him about school, his classes, how his night was. is this real life? I was laughing to myself under the blanket almost blatantly. I knew teddy was just trying to figure out if it was me again or not. he finally left the room and I emerged into fresh air at last.
“I wanted to give you head, so what am I supposed to do now?” I asked chimp, “are they just gonna walk in one by one now, the other three of them?”
“well then, what am I supposed to do?”
“give em a show.” he joked. I started giving him head, which turned into amazing morning sex.
he kissed me goodbye and I went home to spill to Amber about how amazing it was.
this is going to be fucking great, I thought to myself, we can just sleep together with no strings attached and keep having fun. nothing can go wrong here.
was I ever in for a ride.
( to be continued.)